Tuesday, May 31, 2011

A Little Control

Thanks everyone for your comments on my last post.  I've been feeling frustrated about this whole weight loss thing for a while and your cheerleading/advice really helps.

I feel like I had a pretty good day today.  The only snacking I did all day was a protein bar I picked up at Trader Joe's because I don't get to eat dinner on Tuesday nights until 8:30 or so.  230 calories and 20 grams of protein.  No sugar.  That makes me feel really good.

I'm going to take stock of all the advice you all gave me and formulate a plan over the next few days.

Thanks again for all your support and suggestions.  I'm going to bed. 

Monday, May 30, 2011

Weigh-In Results

It's Monday, and Memorial Day. 

I've got another weigh-in to report.  After three weeks of stagnation, I have some movement in the scale to report.

It's movement, but not in the direction I had hoped.  Last week I weighed 241.5.  This week I'm up 2.7 pounds.  I'm mad, but not just about this one number.

I have this feeling like I don't have control over my life.  I have been stuck around the same weight for an entire year now, and while I have experienced plenty of non-scale victories since then, I still feel stuck.  If there's candy, cake, or bad food, I can't help but reach for it.  No matter how well I think I'm doing, I can somehow justify shoving my fat face full of sweets. 

I keep having a dream where my beard is shaved off.  I'm not sure how it happened, but at least part of it is always gone.  I always freak out about it too.  I don't know what it means, but it always makes me feel uneasy. 

I feel lost.

I want to be in control.  I want to lose weight.  I want to feel good about myself.  I just don't know where to start.

Any suggestions?

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Weigh-In Results

So here I am.  Happy Monday?  No, Wednesday.  Whatever.  Here's my weigh-in results for this week. 

This week I weighed S'1h2 pounds.  Oh, wait.  241.5 pounds.  I've been stuck here for three weeks now, but I'm not complaining.  My concert is finished and life is good.  My stress level is reduced and I have considerably more free time during the week now due to choir and jazz activities winding down.  I'm making good choices and I'm feeling healthy.  I do plan on kicking into high gear pretty quickly, but for now I'm not going to beat myself up.

I had a little non-scale-victory last night.  I was at Target trying on shorts and the size 34 fit comfortably.  Up until this point, I've been in 36 inch pants at the tightest.  I chose not to get them because they were a little tight on my butt and it looked weird because the shorts were so baggy in other places. 

I'm going to set my sights on a 2.5 pound loss this week.  I'd like to weigh 239 pounds next week.  It seems manageable.  I'm going to make solid choices and get a good exercise fix. 

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Weigh-In Results

Hey, I haven't switched to Tuesdays for weigh-ins, life is just super-chaotic until Thursday. 

I weighed in at 241.5 yesterday.  I lost 0 pounds but I ate like a total fatty on vacation.

See you on Thursday.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Weigh-In Results

I stepped on the scale yesterday at 241.5.  I gained a pound.  Yech.  I'm going on vacation for my brother's college graduation this week.  We'll be eating out pretty much every meal so my expectations aren't very high.  Still, I'd like to make some progress and make some healthy choices.  I want to lose the one pound I gained this week.  Let's see how it goes.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Forget 100 Pounds in a Year. This is Better!

Yesterday was a pretty good day.  Claire and I walked around Lake Harriette.  Our total was almost 3 miles.  I biked to work this morning too.  My biggest obstacle seems to be the enormous bag of candy one of my colleagues brought into work.  We're on day 3 and there seems to be no end in sight.  I'm indulging way too much, but I'm trying resist as much as possible.  The problem is I'm always much hungrier on days I bike.

Speaking of bikes, I'm in the process of converting a road bike into a fixed gear bicycle.  I've been having a lot of fun working on it, discovering how it works, cleaning it up, and reassembling it.  After toying with a number of different color schemes, I've decided I'm going to paint the bike forest green, get a brown saddle, and wrap the handlebars with white tape.  It's going to be a sweet ride when it's done.  And now that the weather is finally cooperating, I'm actually going to be able to get some exercise by biking. 

I'm optimistic.  Forget 100 pounds in a year.  I'm focused on 2 pounds in a week.  And I'm going to get it!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Weigh-In Results

It's Monday and that means you all get to see how fat I am this week.  I went into the week with the goal of losing 2.4 pounds.  After a comment on a post two weeks ago, I decided to aim for more short-term goals and see how things pan out that way.  Let's see how I did.

This is a little hard to read, but I made my goal!  I aimed for 2.4 pounds lost, and, at 240.5 pounds, I lost 2.9 pounds.  I made a lot of good choices this week, but I didn't seem to change a lot.  I worked out 4 times last week as opposed to the 2 times the week before.  I'd like to see that number higher, but 4 worked this week.

Next week's goal is going to be 2 pounds.  I feel like this week's weigh in might snap back a little, so I'm reducing my goal by .4 pounds.  That's still a solid loss, but more attainable.

Next Monday, I want to weigh 238.5.  How much weight are you going to lose this week?