Saturday, January 25, 2014


I finished my fourth day of T-25 yesterday.  I did a lot of the regular exercises instead of the modified ones.  I'd say I successfully executed 50% of the regular exercises 25% of the modified exercises, and stumbled over myself 25% of the time.  I did the core workout and there were a few exercises that required me to make myself into a V with only my butt on the ground.  I'm not balanced that way and would rock into an upper-case L every time.  I believe my center of gravity is somewhere in my head.

Today is STATurday.  Yup, T-25 has all sorts of handy made-up words to help me get fitergized.  STATURDAY is the day I'm supposed to take all kinds of measurements of myself.  I didn't do my waist or anything last week.  I think I'll start that soon.  I haven't weighed myself.  Maybe I should do that now...

...301.6.  NOPE.  I'm not gonna let that fly.  

I've put in the time on exercise, but I'm clearly showing I need to eat better.  A lot better.  

This is, by far, the most difficult part of losing weight for me.  I need to come up with a plan.

What do you do to make sure you're eating the right food and not overeating?

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Starting Over

I did it.  I weighed myself.  295.2 pounds.  I've officially circled back.  I feel ashamed.  I feel frustrated.  I feel helpless.  I can remember that I was taking off 2-4 pounds a week, but I can't possibly see how it was possible.  I've gained it ALL back and I'm scared.  What if I can't do it again?  What if I get stuck again.  What if the weight never comes off and I die early, unhealthy, and miserable.  

I have to try again.  I don't know if it will lead anywhere, like all of the false starts I've had over the years.  If I don't try I'm fucked.  May as we'll give it a go and see where I can take it.

My wife bought me the beach body p25.  I completed the first workout tonight.  I did entirely the modified workout, but I moved my body for 25 minutes.  I'm sure I'll be feeling it tomorrow.  I don't normally buy into things like gimmicky videos, but I promised I'd give it a shot.  So here I am, spinning my wheels.  Let's see what I can do.