Saturday, September 6, 2014


A lot of cycles are negative.  After losing a bunch of weight a few years ago I stalled hard and got frustrated.  I started not caring about what I ate so I felt crappy.  I felt crappy so I didn't want to exercise.  I didn't exercise so I felt crappier.  I tried to eat my way out of feeling crappy.  Rinse, lather repeat.

But negative cycles can be broken and cycles can be positive.  I started exercising again.  I feel proud of my slow run so I control what I eat one day for dinner.  I feel a little more spring in my step so I go for another run.  I weigh myself and I've lost a couple pounds.  I'm more optimistic and motivated.  I order a salad instead of a burger when I go out.  I go for another run.  I have more energy.  I start noticing a positive change in my appearance.  And it keeps building.

You can turn your negative cycle positive.  Start with something small and work up.  Be proud of everything you accomplish.   First steps are hard, but each one you take is a foundation for a positive cycle.  

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Couch to 5k

I'm giving couch to 5k another shot and I have to say, at week 2, run 2, I finally feel like I'm running instead of trotting.

90 seconds still feels like a long time when I'm running, it's hard to push the last ten seconds, especially when I don't know where they are.  It was definitely easier than it was a couple days ago when I did week 2 day 1.

Moving this big body is not easy, but I'm getting better at it.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Do you Haiku?

Bacon for dinner
Now I'm going for a run
That's all for today.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Monday Weigh-In

Hi All,

I've had a busy week and last week I was feeling frustrated with the weigh-in.

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I gained 2.5 pounds last week.  Ugh.  Not a great way to restart a journey.


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This week I managed to lose 2.8 pounds!

So what did I manage to do right?

I ran several times.  Not as many as I would have liked, but I'm getting better at running.  Next run begins week two of Couch to 5k.

I've also been getting shit done this week.  I had my first week back with students (I'm a teacher if you're new to the blog).  Things are going pretty well, but it's tough getting back into the swing of things again.

I installed a ceiling fan in our nursery.  Also, the rat's nest of cables behind my entertainment center was bothering me.

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So I fixed it by creating a false wall.

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Yup, I wired that outlet myself.  Like a boss.

But most importantly, I captained the Starship Enterprise.

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I did all of these things this week.  I am unstoppable.

Friday, August 29, 2014


I put off writing this post for five days because I got frustrated.

I thought I was doing things right and was sure I would lose weigh.

But I gained a pound.  Last week was an anomaly.  I ate out a bunch and was very sedentary because I was very busy with work stuff.  This week has been a little different, I've been eating at home more, I exercised a couple times (which felt great).  and I've had a more regular work-day.  However, I can feel my appetite starting to come back.  I've got to watch out for that.

This weigh-in taught me that even though being on Concerta is controlling my appetite, I'm still not going to lose weight unless I work to buck my bad eating habits and get out and exercise on a regular basis.

I'm feeling less confident than I was last week, but as long as I take away the idea that my meds won't make me skinny by themselves and maintain the idea that I CAN make the changes I need, I'll be fine.

Here's to making changes!

Sunday, August 24, 2014

I have not been eating well

This past week I've done remarkably little snacking.  I even forgot to eat lunch once this week.

I doubt tomorrow's weigh-in will show a loss.

Why?  Because I've eaten a lot this week.  I've not been exercising.  It boils down to me not having free time this week because of work and various other obligations.  But I have free time now.  So, internet, I'm going to get off my fat ass and go for a run.

Monday, August 18, 2014

First Weekly Weigh-In in a Long Time

First off, I forgot to eat lunch today.  Yesterday's post sums up my experiences getting back on Concerta.  I got so wrapped up in work today I completely forgot to eat.

I know it's not healthy to skip meals, but it's a hell of a lot easier than counting the minutes until it's socially acceptable to stuff my face again.

I'm hoping since the voice telling me to eat immediately has gotten a lot quieter, I'll be able to eat more fruits and vegetables and be satisfied.  I think I'm going to start counting calories soon, but it's so time consuming to enter them.  I suppose complaining about how fat I am is time consuming too.

A long time ago, I used to do weigh-ins on Mondays.  They kept me motivated through the temptations of the weekend and I wasn't weighing myself so much it was making me crazy.

Let's get those started again.
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I can get behind 299.3.  Last Wednesday at the doctor I weighed 309.  Can I count that as a 10 pound loss?