Sunday, November 20, 2011
I just wanted to check in and say I haven't given up, I just don't have the time or energy to update the blog. I'm down a pound since the last post. Not a lot, but it's something. Hopefully, I'll be back soon. My goal is to come back swinging after the new year.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
I'm using this as a learning experience. I'm going to keep focused this week. I can do this.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Someone important somewhere once said it takes you three weeks to turn a behavior into a habit. Using that line of reasoning, I have decided to trick myself into forming positive habits. I lost my first 50 pounds or so by adhering to several 3-week challenges. I challenged myself to exercise every day. I challenged myself to log my food every day. I challenged myself to drink the right 8 eight-ounce glasses of water every day.
Here's the new one. I'm challenging myself to log my intake on the Weight-Watchers website and to exercise every day. I've done one or the other and treaded water the last year, so I figure if I combine both, I'll have great success.
So for the next three weeks, I'll be busting my ever-shrinking ass at the gym and log everything I eat.
You can follow along on twitter by following me @100_Pounds or you can search the hash tag #3weekchallenge. Feel free to contribute!
Anyone want to join me? What's your 3-week challenge?
Monday, October 24, 2011
I got home late from the gym tonight so I'll make this quick.
I weigh 243.7 which is a loss from last week. I'm not sure how much but it's a loss.
I know I haven't blogged for three weeks but I'll make up for it in the next three. I'm doing my first double three week challenge. Counting my intake every day with Weight Watchers and exercising every day for the weeks.
More to come.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Anyway. Camp food is not good for you and I couldn't use my cell phone to count points on Weight-Watchers. The big problem though is camp food is delicious and I had a really hard time accessing my off-switch for eating. I'm a little disappointed in myself, but I'm moving on.
Let's get to the numbers.
My 5k is coming up this weekend and I'm getting nervous. I've got phlegm in my lungs and an ass to get off the couch to get ready. I'll be running no matter what, but I'm hoping I won't have to walk much (or at all).
Any tips for my first 5k?
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
I realized I wish for things that I think are out of my hands. Some of the things I wish for are more out of my control than others. I can't control how many music teaching positions are open for me to apply to. I can control some factors, but I can't really control how long I live (although I can control how happy I am).
I've been clumping my weight in with things that are mostly out of my control. Somewhere deep down I must believe that I really have no control over my weight when, in fact, the one thing that is entirely in my hands is how my weigh-in turns out. Yes, sometimes things get in the way, but I am ultimately the one responsible for my health. I need to completely accept that and I will be a better person for it.
It's time to stop wishing and start working. And if I do allow myself the occasional wish for weight loss after blowing out the candles on my birthday cake, I'd better not eat the whole damn thing.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
By the way, where was I when they were casting this commercial? I'm fat and I can sing.
Monday, September 26, 2011
This is my first full week on weight watchers. Keep in mind I was sick as a dog for the first half of the week and didn't eat a whole lot, so although I'd like to attribute a loss to weight-watchers, I think part of it probably came from yarking up any food I was trying to keep down.
Let's get to the numbers.
|Sorry for the upside-down picture. I guess I weigh h'1h2 pounds this week.|
Friday, September 23, 2011
So I'm feeling better and started tracking again yesterday. I went three points over, but I'm so grateful to have my appetite back that I'm not worried.
So here's what I weighed on Monday:
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
So... I eat.
And I gain weight.
And I go three weeks without blogging because I'm ashamed of what the scale says.
But the other day something happened. Somehow I got out of my negative feedback loop and came to a realization: There are some things that are completely out of my control. Such as which schools are hiring and the fact that if no one is looking for a music teacher, I'm not going to get a job this school year. I need to accept these things and focus on things I can change.
So what can I change? How can I improve my life to increase my chances of finding the job I want?
Start preparing for grad school by studying for the GRE and rehearsing audition music
Get treatment for my ADD (I've been off my meds for about four years now)
Get my website up and running again
Start substitute teaching in the Minneapolis School District on days I don't work at my paraprofessional job so I can get some recognition when I'm applying
And here's the big one: I can lose weight. I need a win to get my self confidence up. Reaching my goal of 196 would be a HUGE win for me.
So I'm going to try to get my shit together in short order here. I want to update my blog more and eat less. So let me start by giving you my last three weigh-ins. Going from least to most recent.
Monday, August 22, 2011
My diet still consists of whatever I can cram in my gullet, but I'm tackling one thing at a time at this point. I'll get my eating under control soon, but I'm building good exercise habits in the meantime.
Let's get to business.
245.5. I'm down another pound. I'm happy with that. I'll get more moving in this week and hopefully I'll drop more than a pound. But overall, I'm pleased. Now I just need to find more time to write my blog.
Monday, August 15, 2011
I did finish week two of Couch to 5k. It went pretty well. I'm getting used to running again, but I'm feeling some slight pains that worry me a little. I hope they don't amount to anything.
Well, let's get to the fat guy show. How much do I weigh this week?
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Not much else to say. It's late and I have to be up early. I just thought I'd write something to remind myself I still have a goal.
Friday, August 12, 2011
I've also been eating like a hoover vacuum cleaner. I don't know if I'll be able to shed any weight this week because I've been snarfing down everything in sight. Well, it's not that bad, but with added exercise, I feel like I'm hungry all the time and eating too much. Plus work is really hard right now and I've been stress eating a little. I will get my eating under control soon. I will get my eating under control soon. I will get my eating under control soon.
So I've been doing Couch to 5k and I skipped straight to the second week because I only have 8 weeks to do the 9-week program before the 5k I'm going to run. That hasn't been so bad. I've been listening to Pandora on my phone during my runs and it's made me realize how much music can psych me up. I created a station for Cake and while I liked almost every song on the station, it made me feel old because it was all music from when I was in high school.
I need to create a playlist I can really get into, and I need your help. What gets you to move your body?
Monday, August 8, 2011
When I got home, I felt very motivated so I found a 5k to run. There aren't a lot of races in October, but I found one on October 8th. That's two months from today, so not quite the 9 weeks C25k suggests so I'll have to squeeze in an extra 3 workouts somewhere in the mix. If you live in the Minneapolis area and you'd like to run a 5k with me, here's the link: 8th Annual Historic Riverfront 5K Run.
Let's get to the weigh-in.
Gross. That's a gain of 3.3 pounds. It doesn't matter though. I'm done with this gaining B.S. This is my low (high?) point. I can only go up (down?) from here. I'm declaring my slump officially over.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Last Monday I got home from my bike ride and weighed myself.
I have been doing a lot of bicycling. I thought it was enough to get rid of some weight. Clearly, that's not the case. While cycling is a good workout and a great idea, it isn't the end-all be-all of losing weight.
Yesterday, Claire and I celebrated her 24th birthday and she did something that inspired me. She signed up for Weight-Watchers. She has shown me that she's committed to losing weight and I want to be right there with her.
Today we went to target and she bought a couple Jillian Michaels workout DVDs. She bought the 30-Day Shred and the Yoga Meltdown. We put in the Yoga Meltdown DVD and started it. I've never really had a lot of faith in yoga. I just couldn't see how it was a good workout. Holy crap, was I ever wrong. 10 minutes in, I was coated in sweat and trembling. I couldn't even finish the workout. I feel a little rubbery now, but I realized something. In order to lose weight, I need to work really hard.
So here it is. I am going to work really hard and melt away this squishy outer layer I'm carrying around with me. 247.1 is not acceptable, and neither is phoning it in.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
I biked to work and back today. I put in 13 miles, which is half of my goal of 26 a day, but I'd say the 13 today felt tougher than yesterday's 27.
If I'm going to get thin, I need to nip this overeating thing in the bud.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Today, we look like this:
Here's how much I weigh this week.
Yesterday I said I was going to bike a marathon every day this week. I did not disappoint today. I biked a total of 27.5 miles. That's the farthest I've biked in recent history. Here's the map:
So Claire, happy anniversary. Over the last two years, you've given me the strength to make myself a better man. You've challenged me when I've needed it most. And you've made me incredibly happy since the day I met you. I've got 47.6 pounds to go before I reach my goal. With you by my side, I know I'll be able to do it.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Here's an update: Claire is out of the hospital and is on the road to recovery. They still don't know what she had, but she's getting better and there will be some lab work coming back soon. Overall, it's good to be back home.
Here's how I fared Thursday on the scale.
241.7. A gain of .9 pounds. I'm not happy about it, but I was stress-eating hospital food. It's amazing I didn't go back to 300 pounds. I'm okay with this, but I need to get back in the right direction.
Here's how I'm going to accomplish this: I'm going to bike a marathon every single day this week. That's right. I'm going to put at least 26.2 miles on my bicycle every day for a week and see what it does to my waistline. I biked 25 miles a couple days ago and the daily plate told me I burned 2500 calories. Over 7 days, that's 17,500 calories, or 5 pounds of fat. Let's see how it goes.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
The real stressful part of today is that we thought we'd be going for a half-hour follow-up visit. That was almost 16 hours ago. Since then, I've eaten the following: a big burger and fries and a gyro with more fries. I feel so gross but I've been getting food when and where it's convenient (I didn't get dinner until 10:00) and I've been stress eating as well. Seriously, this is the kind of eating that got me to 313 pounds in the first place. My stomach is stuffed and I feel super gross.
But all of this is making me realize how much I take my own health for granted. I'm lucky I didn't develop diabetes or worse when I was at my heaviest. I may gain a few pounds in the short term, but I'm determined to lose the rest of the weight. Even though Claire doesn't like hospitals, she's here so she can be healthy and happy with me for a long, long time to come. And even though I don't always like to eat healthy and exercise, I'm going to do it so I can be happy and healthy and with Claire for a long, long time.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Claire started feeling sick. She had a racing heart and a lot of nausea. We went to the doctor on Friday and after that, headed to her parents' house in Wisconsin. During that time, she started feeling worse. We came back to Minneapolis, went to the doctor, went to the emergency room, and went to the heart clinic. Claire's mom came to visit because she was really feeling lousy at this point. And to top it all off, we were supposed to be on vacation.
During this time, I've fallen off the wagon hard. I don't know how much of it was stress-eating and how much I just wanted an excuse to shove anything and everything into my fat face.
Since I lost my job, I've felt like my life is out of my control. I just want stability. I just want control. I just want things to work out my way. But I suppose complaining about it is the least effective thing I can do.
I can start by sharing my weight from Monday. Yes, I actually weighed myself but didn't get around to posting it. So here's Monday's weight. You'll get another number tomorrow (probably much higher).
240.8. I don't know where the picture went. I gained .4 pounds. I'm not going to sweat it (or my inevitable gain tomorrow). I'm getting back on track with the eating today.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
I didn't watch where I was going and ran right into a retaining wall. I feel like a doofus, but it was worth it for the 879 calories I burned over the course of my ride. The retaining wall was about three feet high and I went right over the handlebars. I ended up with a scratched up hand and a very sore heel. I'm not exactly sure how I hurt my heel, but overall, things could have been much worse. I scratched plenty of paint off my bike and I have to re-true the front wheel. I also tore up my saddle, but I'm more or less fine. This is why it's important to wear your helmet.
If you're on the fence about trying out bicycling, do it. It's fairly low impact (except for the very rare extremely high impact moments which only happen if you're an idiot who doesn't watch where he's going) and it's tons of fun.
I'll leave you with the map and stats for today's ride.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
I've also been having a harder time making sure I only take in 2000 calories a day. I'm going to plan out my day tomorrow before I go to bed tonight so I have a plan I can follow. That seems to work pretty well.
I've been working on my mountain bike and I'm at a frustrating impasse. I can't get the bottom bracket unscrewed from the bike. It would be a shame to have to junk that bike just because of one stuck part.
Well, that's all I've got now. Better get back on that bike.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Today's bike ride took me 19 miles at 12.5 mph over the course of an hour-and-a-half. About two-thirds of the way through the ride I was toast but I kept going because I needed to get home. Here's the route:
According to an online calorie calculator, I burned 1400 calories on my bike-ride! Yes Yes Yes! If I could bike this much every day, I don't know what, but I feel like I'd weigh 150 pounds by the end of the month.
So let's see how I did on the scale.
240.4 for a loss of 4.4 pounds! I am back! I'm going to keep this up through July. Let's see how much I can lose.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
I'll be doing two things this month; biking every day and keeping my intake around 2000 calories a day. Unfortunately, I biffed on the very first day on the biking front, but I did very well on my intake. I didn't bike today because I ran some errands this morning, and by the time I got back, it was 97 degrees. Then it stormed, and then it was too late to bike. I know, it's bad to start with excuses, but I still came in at 1,762 calories today and I'm proud of myself.
I'll leave you with the tastiest breakfast I've had in a long time.
2 eggs sunny side up - 140 calories
2 pieces of toast (light bread) - 80 calories
hot sauce - 0 calories
1 medium orange - 70 calories
Total - 290 calories. Nom nom nom!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
So July is my summer break/job hunt. I'll get lots of sleep and get to relax, but I'll also have time to work on my body. Starting tomorrow, I'll be limiting my calories to 2000 a day and going for a bike ride every day. I'll also be going to the gym 4-5 times a week. I've planned out my meals for tomorrow (minus lunch, I've still got to figure that one out) and I'm going to the gym with Claire in the morning.
I know it seems like a lot, but this is my chance to reboot. This is my chance to move substantially toward health and I'm not going to squander it.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Let's get to that damn scale.
8'hh2. Oh man, not 8'hh2. Wait... turn your head 244.8. Alright, that's not bad. I came down .7 pounds. At least I didn't gain weight like I thought I did.
This coming week is my last week teaching music at my current job. My priority will be finding a job. Hopefully, wallowing in self pity will be much, much farther down the list.
Monday, June 20, 2011
245.5. I gained .7 pounds, which, don't get me wrong, sucks. However, it's not bad considering the week I had. Last Wednesday I found out my music teaching position at my school was being replaced by a music therapy position so I'm out of a job for next year. I've been stress-eating and if that weren't bad enough I hurt my back this weekend so I haven't been able to get much exercise.
The good news is I have an interview this Thursday, which happens to be my birthday. I'm hoping that's a good omen and I'll get the job.
Well, life is happening and I've got some extra things to juggle for a while. But I
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
I know I did bad. Let's see what the scale says.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
As soon as the power went out I decided I'd get going to the gym. Then I realized my car was trapped in my garage and the only way to get to it was through an electric garage door opener. So I walked.
After the gym I went to the grocery store. I made some not-so-good choices there. Nothing terrible, just some fruit-bar popsicle things. They're very tasty but too high in sugar to be of anywhere near healthy.
It was still in the 90s and since my building had no electricity I was roasting. I found a battery-powered lamp and plopped in a cold bath with my popsicle and a copy of Lord of the Flies. Half an hour later, the power was back on and I went to bed.
I keep thinking about how well I did last week. It's hard to remember that control feels a lot like being hungry most of the time and that voice in the back of my head demanding chocolate needs to shut up. I'm trying to do as well this week but I'm not putting it together quite as well as I did last week. Case in point with the popsicle.
I'm really tired and ready for bed. I got back late from Cirque du Soleil. More on that later (because it was awesome). Goodnight.
Monday, June 6, 2011
241.7. I lost 2.5 pounds this week. I'm really happy about this. I'd like to lose another 2.5 this week.
Claire's gone for the week so I'm all by myself. Hopefully that will mean lots of exercise and eating right, but it might mean sitting on the couch in my underwear eating popsicles. Actually, what it meant tonight is my evening was dedicated to working on my bike.
I'm so close to being done with this project. Overall I'm pleased with how it's turning out, but there are so many pitfalls along the way. Hey, kind of like losing weight.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
In my off-time, I've been working on rebuilding a road-bike frame my brother gave me. I know it's not terribly weight-loss related, but I'd like to share my handiwork.
This is what I started with. No wheels, no seat, just a really ugly bike frame.
Next, I pulled the crank out.
Got most of the extras off here.
I stripped most of the paint off here. Chemical paint stripper is some nasty stuff. Probably not too good for the environment.
I stripped all the rest of the paint and rust off with a wire brush that attached to my drill. You can't really see it here, but the frame was gorgeous shining in the sun. It's almost a shame I painted it.
Next I primed. Had a little overspray on the bricks. Oh well, I think I'll just turn them over.
All set to paint.
This is how it looks now. It's drying in my garage, just waiting for those beautiful wheels. It's a shade more John Deere than I'd hoped, but I'm happy with the color.
I can't wait for the paint to cure so I can reassemble and get out on the road.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
I feel like I had a pretty good day today. The only snacking I did all day was a protein bar I picked up at Trader Joe's because I don't get to eat dinner on Tuesday nights until 8:30 or so. 230 calories and 20 grams of protein. No sugar. That makes me feel really good.
I'm going to take stock of all the advice you all gave me and formulate a plan over the next few days.
Thanks again for all your support and suggestions. I'm going to bed.
Monday, May 30, 2011
I've got another weigh-in to report. After three weeks of stagnation, I have some movement in the scale to report.
It's movement, but not in the direction I had hoped. Last week I weighed 241.5. This week I'm up 2.7 pounds. I'm mad, but not just about this one number.
I have this feeling like I don't have control over my life. I have been stuck around the same weight for an entire year now, and while I have experienced plenty of non-scale victories since then, I still feel stuck. If there's candy, cake, or bad food, I can't help but reach for it. No matter how well I think I'm doing, I can somehow justify shoving my fat face full of sweets.
I keep having a dream where my beard is shaved off. I'm not sure how it happened, but at least part of it is always gone. I always freak out about it too. I don't know what it means, but it always makes me feel uneasy.
I feel lost.
I want to be in control. I want to lose weight. I want to feel good about myself. I just don't know where to start.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
This week I weighed S'1h2 pounds. Oh, wait. 241.5 pounds. I've been stuck here for three weeks now, but I'm not complaining. My concert is finished and life is good. My stress level is reduced and I have considerably more free time during the week now due to choir and jazz activities winding down. I'm making good choices and I'm feeling healthy. I do plan on kicking into high gear pretty quickly, but for now I'm not going to beat myself up.
I had a little non-scale-victory last night. I was at Target trying on shorts and the size 34 fit comfortably. Up until this point, I've been in 36 inch pants at the tightest. I chose not to get them because they were a little tight on my butt and it looked weird because the shorts were so baggy in other places.
I'm going to set my sights on a 2.5 pound loss this week. I'd like to weigh 239 pounds next week. It seems manageable. I'm going to make solid choices and get a good exercise fix.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Speaking of bikes, I'm in the process of converting a road bike into a fixed gear bicycle. I've been having a lot of fun working on it, discovering how it works, cleaning it up, and reassembling it. After toying with a number of different color schemes, I've decided I'm going to paint the bike forest green, get a brown saddle, and wrap the handlebars with white tape. It's going to be a sweet ride when it's done. And now that the weather is finally cooperating, I'm actually going to be able to get some exercise by biking.
I'm optimistic. Forget 100 pounds in a year. I'm focused on 2 pounds in a week. And I'm going to get it!
Monday, May 2, 2011
This is a little hard to read, but I made my goal! I aimed for 2.4 pounds lost, and, at 240.5 pounds, I lost 2.9 pounds. I made a lot of good choices this week, but I didn't seem to change a lot. I worked out 4 times last week as opposed to the 2 times the week before. I'd like to see that number higher, but 4 worked this week.
Next week's goal is going to be 2 pounds. I feel like this week's weigh in might snap back a little, so I'm reducing my goal by .4 pounds. That's still a solid loss, but more attainable.
Next Monday, I want to weigh 238.5. How much weight are you going to lose this week?
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Something came in the mail for me the other day.
Since I lost a bunch of weight, I've moved from the big and tall section into the normal-size people section. I still get this catalog and I don't know what I should do with it. What would you like to see? Do you want me to throw it out the window? How about light it on fire with my mind? You can probably think of better things to do with it than me.
Here's your chance. Tell me what fate should befall this catalog. I'll be sure to take lots of pictures.
Monday, April 25, 2011
I've been hung up on my failure to meet long-term goals. Big Clyde suggested in my last post that I come up with a specific goal for a week from now, so here it is: I want to weigh 241 by next Monday. There's my goal. My something to work for. One week to lose 2.4 pounds. It can happen. It will happen.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Let's see this week's result.
It appears, however, that the 7.1 pound gain was a fluke. Seeing as I lost 3 pounds this week. I'm still up 4.1 pounds from where I was and I need to get back there soon.
Maybe I should start by updating my blog more than once a week.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Let's get to the weigh-in.
I gained 7.1 pounds this week. Not good. I keep telling myself I'm at a plateau, but in reality, I'm not trying hard enough. I'm eating too much, I'm slacking on the exercise, and my motivation is in the crapper. I used to live or die by the number on the scale. This week I looked at the number and said to myself, "Yeah, I deserve that."
The other night as we were falling asleep, I asked my wife, Claire, if I was half-assing this whole weight loss thing. She said yes before I could finish answering the question. I think I might actually be no-assing this whole weight loss thing.
Yes, I've come a long way, but if I'm ever going to reach my goal, I have to get my ass in gear.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Now I realize I might sound a bit negative. I don't mean to be. Maybe we should just get to the number.
Yup, there it is. My lowest weight in nine years. 238.3. I lost 2.1 pounds this week. I'm excited, but like I said earlier, I suspect the scale might be teasing me. Then again, the 21-day challenge of stopping before I'm full combined with 30 Days of Biking might actually be doing something for me.
Anyway, I'm motivated again. The weather is improving and I'd like to bust out the bikini this beach season.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
30 Days of Biking starts tomorrow! What's 30 Days of biking you ask? Well, you're in luck. Here to tell you all about it is a friend of mine and one of the founders, himself.
What is this 30 Days of Biking Thing Anyways?
30 Days of Biking is a challenge to ride your bike every day for thirty days during the month of April. It is what you make of it. Your goals drive what the event means for you. The one common theme is that we all ride every day!
We then share adventures online and with the world: Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, Flickr, Daily Mile, snail mail, bottles in the ocean. Take photos, issue tweets, write blog entries. By participating in 30 Days of Biking, you join a worldwide community of cyclists who will encourage you along the way—you won’t be alone, you will be encouraged!
At 30 Days of Biking, we strongly believe that biking enriches life, builds community, and preserves the earth. It's what we here have personally seen and witnessed time and time again from year one participants. People who participate literally change their lives in a profound way—from physical enhancements (slimmer bodies, tighter butts, titanium legs) to internal changes (state of being, feeling zen) to social boosts (meeting new fun people, spending quality biking time with family).
We encourage you to try 30 Days of Biking, challenge yourself, and see what kinds of stories you have!
Zachariah Schaap is one of the founders of 30 Days of Biking. You can follow him on twitter @Zachamon or just use the hashtag #30daysofbiking. You can also "like" 30 Days of Biking on facebook here. Sign up here! It's free!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Now that you've seen it, I'm sure you hate it too. It's pretty gross. It's the reason I have a beard which my wife, Claire, has never seen me without. I shaved it once five or six years ago and I looked like this.
|That's me on the left. People get us mixed up sometimes. It's the hair.|
What do you want to change about yourself?
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Today's post is titled Topless Mayhem.
No, not that kind of topless mayhem. This kind of topless mayhem.
On the left is me at my heaviest. 313 pounds. Gross. In the middle is what I looked like last July and on the right is what I look like now (well, yesterday). I can't really tell if there's much of a difference between July and now. Maybe a little. I feel kind of stuck.
Here's a view from the side.
I think I've shrunk a little, but it's really hard to tell. What do you think? The biggest motivator here is seeing how far I've come since I started. All I have to do to succeed is just do what I've already done one more time. I can do that.
Oh, for those of you who really wanted some topless mayhem, I won't disappoint.
Maybe I'll look like this some day.