Friday, April 23, 2010


I've been spending the weekend cleaning out my grandmother's house.  You might remember that she passed away a in February.  It's been emotionally tough going through everything but it's also a good way to get some closure.

Even though we've had to eat out for every meal, I've been trying to keep my health in mind.  I had a waffle, 3 hard-boiled eggs, and a glass of apple juice for breakfast.  For lunch I had a grilled chicken, bacon and Swiss cheese sandwich (I know bacon is bad, but it's so delicious) with a salad!  That's right, I resisted fries and incredible-looking onion rings and had a salad.  Go me!  Then for dinner I had pizza.  I made myself stop eating before I was full and just wait.  I wish I had done it sooner because after ten minutes or so I felt stuffed.  I'm glad I stopped when I did.

Would you like some pizza on your pizza?
I finished week three of C25k today.  It was tough since I forgot to pack any exercise clothes and ended up running in my sleep shorts and a t shirt.  It was raining and cold which actually made me want to run more in order to stay warm but I stuck to the program.  After my run I felt like I had conquered the elements.  I like the rain or shine exercise mentality.  It really makes me feel like I've accomplished something.

I got some incredible responses to my last post.  I talked about my inner critic and how I need to make "snackrifices."  I rely a lot on your comments when I'm doubting myself.  The comments from the last post really motivated me to keep going.  I'd like to share a couple of them.
Anonymous said...
Please stop "should"ing on yourself. You made mistakes in the past. Now is the time to start anew. Don't do things 'cause you "should" or "shouldn't" but rather because YOU made a concious decision to do/not do. Don't ever let food just happen to you. Regardless of whether it's "good" or "bad" just start with the realization that all of it, every last bite, is under your control. Food is not a sentient being, you are. Focus on the foods you love/enjoy that are also good for you. Focus on what you can eat, rather than on what you "can't". Begin to understand that you eat that salad/vegetable/lean protein/fruit/yogurt because it provides energy and nutrients that fuel and protect your body, not because you are punishing yourself or rectifying past mistakes. Eating well is no sacrifice, it's a feast.
Wow.  There are so many really good things in this comment.  My favorite sentence is "Don't ever let food just happen to you."  I'm in control of my food.  Not the other way around.  A few of you added that it's not easy to immediately jump into this mindset, but it's something to strive for.  As someone who's had an unhealthy relationship with food my entire life, I'm the first to realize this.  I'm going to strive for it and I'm going to enjoy the food I put in my body.

josie (35 and Shrinking) said...

man, I am all too familiar with that inner critic. Some days she just haunts me.

There is no cookie cutter way to be successful here. We all have to choose the path that works for us and it sounds like you're doing just that. Hang in there!

I really appreciate your support.  I often wonder if I'm doing anything right and just need a reminder that my journey is my own and I need to find what works for me.

Thanks to everybody who commented.  You managed to turn around some serious self doubt today.


  1. I was debating on doing a blog myself and seeing what comes of it, though I wasn't sure how people would react to someone trying to lose weight and venting out to a blog. I'm glad to see that you are getting so much support. I like your idea overall and I guess I'll have to start reading your blog from the beginning. I myself need to lose about 80 lbs - I should get on the scale for an exact number - I have been scared of that, but I'm inspired to start after reading your blog and all the support and advice you get and give.

  2. Is that a picture of a real pizza or is that PhotoShop magic?

  3. I'm glad to hear you're feeling more closure now.

    I remembered someone's comments from another post; stop eating fast food as much as possible. I know there are times you can't avoid it (out of town for a weekend etc) but even one restaurant meal can cancel out a few days worth of hard work and perseverance.

  4. Tralle,

    Why don't you have a counter on your website? It seems like you are getting a lot of traffic. I would show that off a little. I read every post but sometimes through my RSS feed because blogspot sites are hard to access in China.

    I want to lose about 25-30 pounds. I started a fitness journal to monitor my food and my exercise. I'm also trying to cut out all added sugar.

    Sorry this is posted "anonymously" but it wasn't letting me log in.