I don't know if I've ever gone this long without posting. Here's what happened since I last posted:
Claire started feeling sick. She had a racing heart and a lot of nausea. We went to the doctor on Friday and after that, headed to her parents' house in Wisconsin. During that time, she started feeling worse. We came back to Minneapolis, went to the doctor, went to the emergency room, and went to the heart clinic. Claire's mom came to visit because she was really feeling lousy at this point. And to top it all off, we were supposed to be on vacation.
During this time, I've fallen off the wagon hard. I don't know how much of it was stress-eating and how much I just wanted an excuse to shove anything and everything into my fat face.
Since I lost my job, I've felt like my life is out of my control. I just want stability. I just want control. I just want things to work out my way. But I suppose complaining about it is the least effective thing I can do.
I can start by sharing my weight from Monday. Yes, I actually weighed myself but didn't get around to posting it. So here's Monday's weight. You'll get another number tomorrow (probably much higher).
240.8. I don't know where the picture went. I gained .4 pounds. I'm not going to sweat it (or my inevitable gain tomorrow). I'm getting back on track with the eating today.
Hey I know how you feel! That happened to me too when my GG died and I had to go home to visit my family. Getting stability back is hard I havent gotten it yet but Im working towards it.
ReplyDeleteAndrew, hope things start to improve for you very soon. Sounds like you are going through some awfully tough times right now.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, dude. Slow and steady. You will be fine, just don't get too discouraged and try to make good choices today.
ReplyDeleteHow is Claire?
That's terrible to hear. How's Claire? I hope she's doing alright! I also know how you feel on the stability front. I've been unemployed and living with my mom and sisters since April. It's really hard to lose weight when you're stressed about money (and life). Luckily, I start grad school in August and will be moving and have a stipend coming my way soon. I hope that you also find something quickly to fulfill your needs. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI know its hard to focus on eating right and taking care of yourself when there is so much going on demanding your attention.
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath, clear your mind, remind yourself to take it one step at a time....You can do this!!!
Hugs!